Hello readers,
I want to try something a bit different
for me and for this blog, and start an open dialogue about art that
I'll host here. I have a lot to say on the subject, and friends of
mine know it is often hard to get me to shut up about it. My hope is
that having this outlet to spew my thoughts into the void will reduce
the amount of squawking they have to hear, and also that it will
provide a place for me to learn as I teach. I use the term “dialogue”
because I genuinely want to hear your comments, thoughts, and
feedback. I want to know that what I'm writing makes sense, is
accurate, and is non-alienating. My hope is that by engaging with all
of you, the collective knowledge-sharing will bring us up together
like a rising tide.
It is my hope you'll join me on this
journey, give me your honest feedback, and help be a part of the
process. Without further ado, let's jump in.
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One of my most prolific failures, done for a gallery show and never finished, not even after nearly 2 years in the making. It was hard, but I've since moved on.
Before writing this inaugural piece, I
asked my friends which topics they wanted me to cover. I got a lot of
good data from it, but one in particular stood out to me. My buddy
and former teacher back at Academy of Art,
Nick Ross, wanted to see
an article about embracing failure. I think it spoke to me because
it's a thing I constantly harp about, but hadn't thought to write.
Nick watched me fail every day for months in his class, and I think
he knows how important it was for me to go through that.
Failure is an essential part in the
honing of any craft. But especially in creative endeavors, the weight
of continued failure can be damaging to our egos and to our
creativity itself. This means most people bail on creative pursuits
before they've had time to really learn anything, or make anything of
value. We've all seen prodigies who begin kicking ass right out of
the gate, and it can be extremely difficult for most people to put
aside their pride and continue making crap in the shadow of that
looming talent. If it's this hard, you might be wondering, why bother
failing at all?
Not every idea is a winner. In fact, most aren't.
Failure Is Learning
When you learn, you are building
connections in your brain that were previously nonexistent or
underdeveloped. Every failure builds a new connection of what worked
and what didn't, and fosters learning. There are plenty of pursuits
where failure is literally painful, or in some cases even deadly,
which makes failure terrifying to those of us who are risk-averse.
However, most of these pursuits offer methods of risk
mitigation—helmets, elbow and knee pads, safety nets, flotation
devices, etc. Art does not. You're going to fail in creative
endeavors. It's going to happen, and it is something you will have to
overcome to become successful in any meaningful sense of the word.
Failure in the arts is, thankfully, only mildly psychically damaging.
You can fail an enormous number of times without doing any real
permanent harm, even if the temporary pain still stings.
Learning is fun. I realize this is a
pretty non-controversial sentiment for most of you, but plenty of
people resist learning at every available opportunity. You might have
noticed these people are usually assholes, and it's probably because
they're not interested in having the kind of fun learning provides.
Don't be one of those people. Don't be an asshole. Humility and being
open to being wrong are arguably among the greatest traits a person
can exhibit. But if you don't think learning is fun, don't take my
word for it:
many studies link humor and laughter to learning and knowledge retention.
All of this is to say failure can be
fun, if you learn to accept it.
One of my first, and worst, watercolor plein air studies.
Learn From Your Mistakes
Making mistakes teaches you what not to
do. By knowing what things didn't work, we can start building inroads
to success and avoiding the potholes. We build rules, however
flexible, that help dictate what we do differently the next time.
There is no wrong way to get good at art, just ways that offer better
or worse returns. I'd like to cover this topic more in my next post,
but for now let's just say everything you do is mileage, and it all
helps.
However, I want to offer some caution.
Many of the failures I weeded out of my process early on were only
failures because I lacked the skill to properly execute them, and
were actually avenues worth pursuing more as I developed. Do your
best to distill the root failure in each piece you make, and be
careful not to accidentally throw out something important to your
growth. Years ago, I experimented with type, with graphic
composition, abstraction, stream-of-consciousness drawing, and with
various styles. At some point I settled into a comfort zone, and my
work suffered a lot for having done so. Even now I am rebuilding that
sense of playfulness, and it is taking more time than it would have
had I continued to nurture its development from the onset. Embracing
failure means learning to accept that just because something isn't
working, it doesn't have to be something you cut out. It means
learning which things are worth cutting out by putting in the
experience and time.
Failures can happen even when we
finally get a win. Every successful piece I've ever made has had a
mistake I only saw in hindsight. Don't be afraid of this happening.
Learn to become objective about your own work, and take into account
what you would do differently next time.
Some of my first professional work. Ouch.
Learn From Your Successes
Just as successful art can have
valuable failures in them, failure can have small wins worth taking
on to the next piece. A small patch of brushwork, the lighting or
value design, or any number of things you find fascinating and
beautiful in a piece could be worth taking away from your work.
Likewise, when you make good work, allow yourself to be okay with
accepting those few places where things aren't perfect. If the piece
was ultimately successful, take the win with the confidence boost it
might yield, and use that to keep your momentum going. Again, I
caution you to examine these successes carefully to understand why
they are working. The last thing you want to do is start
incorporating the same exact elements haphazardly into all future
work just because it worked once.
This is the first traditional painting I did for a client, and my first time using gouache ever. It took a monumental effort to bring this through to final. Though I am proud of the result, I would have done it completely differently the next time around.
Failing Is Easy
Despite the toll it might take on your
psyche if you get too attached, failing can be relatively painless
and easy. Learning to be objective in your work and see it for all
its flaws allows you a distance that can be freeing. Trying something
and failing has a relatively low cost, but especially so if you fail
privately. This is why artists are recommended to do studies,
thumbnails, and sketches well before bringing anything to clients.
You have a lot of crap ideas floating around in your head, and a lot
of the easiest, often worst executions bumbling around up there too.
Getting all of them out forces you to be creative in non-obvious
ways. It forces you to grow and to become a better artist. If you go
for the obvious idea first and see it through to final, you run the
risk of failing very publicly. Ultimately, what matters is the end
result, and as long as you're honest in your approach people will not
care if you needed a ton of reference or a 3D model or what have you.
Fail until you've gotten all the failures out, then succeed.
The first and last days respectively of my first Still Life Painting class in college.
Practice
All that practice is, is reducing your
rate of failure. Even masters mess up, but years—sometimes
decades—of practicing, studying, and learning means they fail less
and less. But failure never goes away, and that is why continued
practice, foundations, studying, and learning are essential. You can
see when an artist stagnates because they continue to fail at an even
rate. The goal is to keep moving, and keep pushing down that
fail-rate, keep increasing your number of wins. The first step is to
embrace that failure will always be with you, and learn to welcome it
for the opportunity it is. Keep trying new things and building on
them to make everything you do that much better.